Waiting on the Lord

 

I have found this season of life to be marked by waiting-specifically, waiting on answered prayer. For over ten years, my family and I have voiced prayers for my mother’s health and waited for the Lord to answer,so this concept is not foreign to me. But when waiting on God to answer prayer suddenly means waiting for my mom to receive a double lung transplant, it can become all-consuming.

With this waiting has come a flood of questions, fear, anger, and doubt. Does God hear me? Does he care? Does he know how long I’ve been waiting on him to fix this? Where do I find the goodness of God in this?

In the midst of my questioning, I can tell you is that God is doing work deep within my soul. And he’s accomplishing this work through a small community of a few young adult women who meet weekly in a coffee shop to read Scripture and speak truth into each other’s lives.

Behold, how good and how pleasant it is for brothers to dwell together in unity.
Psalm 133:1

Something beautiful happens when you experience this kind of community with other believers. There’s this element of vulnerability and transparent honesty that takes place. While this occasionally  comes in the form of an embarrassing ugly cry, I describe it as beautiful because it has been so life giving for me. In this season of waiting, God is using these precious women to speak to me.

God is using these women to remind me that yes, he hears my prayer, he truly cares for me, and yes, he knows how long I’ve been waiting.

Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you.
1 Thessalonians 5:4-7

He is using these women to remind me that through the waiting and the struggle, God is shaping my character. And it is because of his goodness that he desires to draw me near and speak to me. God is teaching me to lean into him and to seek the joy and the assurance that only he can provide.

In a devotion by Wendy Pope, she writes, “Sometimes the wait is more about experiencing God than enduring the delay.” I love the truth behind this – the truth that God desires to meet with us in what can sometimes be our darkest moments, and that he brings light into these moments by drawing us nearer each other and nearer to him.

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